Everything feels like it’s falling apart and I just want to be gone. I’m suffocating again and nobody can hear me screaming. I can’t keep going through this. It’s like there is a dark smog clouding my head and my heart and telling me I’m never going to amount to anything. How can I keep going from being so happy, to so fucking low. I just wish there was a way out of this. Why do I have to be there for everyone else? Why isn’t there anyone here for me? It doesn’t make any sense. The more I try to do right the more I get treated wrong. Fucking crying all alone every night is not how “the best years” are supposed to be..